This is the one day that I will use this blog again. Just because today is a special day. Lol, I was going to post something else with this but I thought better of it.

I don’t know if you’ll ever see this.

I don’t know if you even care.

I don’t even know, if you still remember my existence.

Whatever the case. If you ever see this I hope you know that I have not forgotten and I will never forget… pretty much anything ^^. I hope you are happy now. I hope that in the end, my decision helped you and I hope that you’re still not beating yourself up over it. It’s not a big deal.

You taught me how to love. You showed me what it’s like to be loved. You also showed me that nothing I can do can make a difference. That you’re willing to give everything up so easily without thinking about how I feel. Yet, despite all of this I still love you. Still everyday I feel a constant pain and reminder. I keep myself busy because when I stop for even a second, thoughts and memories of you come rushing back.

生日快樂. 

Hope it was a good one <3.

Have you ever thought that it wasn’t only that it hurt? That it isn’t only for myself that I chose to take this path? Maybe I’ve taken a bad approach, maybe I’ve chosen the worst possible path possible for our situation. But do you know why I chose this? 

Its because I can’t stand to see you in pain. I know how hard things were for you when I tried, when I fought. How everything I said just made things worse. I couldn’t stand seeing you be like that. And even now, it worries me that even though “he” may or may not have known that you were going through this. He still pressed on and only saw what he wanted. I may be completely wrong about that but this doesn’t have anything to do with me anymore.

The fact that I’m still alive means that I’m doing well and okay right? So you don’t need to worry at all. And as to hurting me, I don’t care. Shit happens, get over it ^^ I’ve done it once and I’ll do it before. You only have one life to live. No one can tell you what to do with it.

You don’t have to be sorry for anything you’ve done. Because to be honest, if I had a choice then I wouldn’t choose myself either. All I can do is just be myself and hope for the best. 

Don’t be sad, be happy. You’re too beautiful for all those frowns :). 

I’m glad you found someone that you can yourself around. I hope the best for you.

For the last time, don’t worry about me. I’m perfectly fine okay? ^^ Just worry about yourself. That’s all that matters :).